The Christmas season is fast approaching and the year is about to end but my single life is just beginning. It's funny to see that after the previous post. This is the next topic.
Well it's true. It's been a while now after a great love has been shattered. I fought for it but I guess there's no sense in doing that when you're the only one holding on.
As of this moment, I am at work, taking my lunch and what better way to let the time pass than write something. I need to keep myself busy. That's the fastest way I can think of to recovery. Though the wounds have partially healed. There is still that hole in my heart that seeks for love, the hope that someday I might find the one I will spend my whole life with.
And though it's true that I miss you most of the time. I stop myself from feeling more... I know it makes no sense to hope for something that you have ended.
I have no idea where this write up is heading but right know , I feel alone at my station surrounded by empty chairs and turned off computers....I don't want to feel sad as I don't want to cry....I just want time to move fast at this very moment.
This past few days no matter how much I keep myself busy and exhausted, I tend to have more energy than usual. I find myself watching Youtube Videos to put myself to sleep. I find myself laughing hard at funny clips, singing songs, dancing around the room. And as I stop and keep still , I find my self in my own world, living in my fantasies and as reality checks, I am alone again...